is humanity doomed?

I feel like humanity is doomed. This doesn't especially mean we're entering apocalyptic times. It just means that humanity, in it's natural state of grace is going to completely disappear.

I'm obviously depressed right now. Maybe it's more and more obvious that I'm completely empty and shallow on the inside and I'm just projecting this insecurity onto the world. As far as I know humanity is progressing and evolving through changes I can't even imagine.

Life is strange, wouldn't yah say?

we all love The Beatles, and sometimes we think The Beatles actually love us back

the first musical thing I ever devoted myself too was the soundtrack to 'The Yellow Submarine', an amazing film that basically spawned the psychedelia obsession that has lasted my entire life since then

a lot of people think of it as a sub-par Beatles album, a disc to avoid spending money on, but right now as i listen to it I notice that there's still the magic that I heard as a child contained within in, it's an excellent selection of songs and it contains a lot of great material that you can't get on other Beatles CDs

that's all I have to say about The Beatles, I feel like i'd be saying too much if i said anything more

two ghost having a conversation in front of my bathroom mirror

i feel sick, disoriented, like i'm upside down

are you upside down or are you rightsideup?

somewhere between the two

maybe you need a drink, a drink of whisky, that might get your head on straight

i need to puke....

puke in the toilet, not the sink

i feel like i'm going to die

how does it feel to die?

it feels kind of obnoxious, but it's kind of pleasant in a perverted way. You think that every little second of life that you have is so infinite, but it just slips away and then nothingness crawls in and fills up the void that was once a decent and honest or depraved and sickening life. It's a cold feeling, it's icy, and then the hallucinations start.

i don't remember that

i remember nothing, but i have an imagination so it's ok

i remember seeing god and then having him laugh at me for being a dipshit

i need more whisky man and then 300 years ago won't feel that long

long like a highway that just collapses when you get to your destination

yeah, or long like the night sky

*pukes outrageously*

*smiles*

i'm going to learn to play the violin and write songs to resurrect the dead

i'll learn to play the accordion

yes! we'll play in graveyards and morgues

and maybe we'll learn some songs, maybe even write some, maybe we'll make a joyful noise like the bible says to do!

the bible didn't give us shit

leave your faith behind!

on dusty street corners of butcher shops and penny arcades,

where young harry slings his guitar and old joseph stumbles with his cane

sits the the puritan preacher who vomits out his diatribe whenever he sees sin

braindead

is where it all began 

it's oh so disconcerting isn't it?

I have this paranoid fear that the Right is going to start mobilizing with more force than ever. Far Right philosophies are starting to gain more credibility, and they have a perfect target: an administration that aims to help minoritys and those in poverty led by a black man. Watching Fox News at any given moments is more and more frightening. Right Wing gun nuts who think that god is on their side have always scared me, and now I have this creeping feeling that they're going to become more organized and mobilized than ever.

I don't have any real evidence to back these fears up. It's a total paranoid feeling, beyond any type of logical political analyzation. But we're certainly living in historical times and crazy things are capable of happening.

Who knows how things will end up. One thing is for sure; the future is a mysterious thing. 

six organs of admittance

I can't get enough of Ben Chasny and his mystical guitar explorations. This is some of the most truly psychedelic music i've ever heard. 

the challenge of this life...

is to leave my laziness behind & find something i think is worth doing 

the question is:

will i ever truly dedicate myself to something?

it's not a long time from now 

when i find out 

if i can