this could be a cool beginning to a book

i wake up and the day begins, contrary to what I would prefer. it's time to take responsibility and care about things, no longer time to aimlessly wander the subconscious. however i have it my ambition to behave in the same way i do in the waking state of conscious consensus reality as i do in the dream state. I live in a haze, a cloud that filters out sensible logic and leaves me only with the abstractions and absurdities and none of the clarity.