musings, ramblings, observations, all blown out of proportion and mistaken for insights


Friday, April 24, 2009

the challenge of this life...

is to leave my laziness behind & find something i think is worth doing 

the question is:
will i ever truly dedicate myself to something?

it's not a long time from now 
when i find out 
if i can 




Tuesday, April 21, 2009

My goal for the next 3 months

Read:
1. Ulysses by James Joyce
2. Gravity's Rainbow by Thomas Pynchon
3. Being and Nothingness by Jean-Paul Sartre 

ahahahahahhahahahahaha

 yeah right!

If it works i'll be the happiest man alive though 

Thursday, April 9, 2009

The Century of the Self

You're probably a busy person. Or so you've tricked yourself into thinking. One of the biggest illusions we all have is that our time is constantly occupied by important things. We like to think this because it makes us feel bigger. We feel stress, we organize our lives, we make up reasons to avoid leisure time with awkward friends because of how busy we are. All the pressures put on our lives drive us to do crazy things like take drugs and watch television, but ultimately when we get down to it we have plenty of time. We have time that simply slips by us in the maelstrom of stress. So when I tell you to watch 4 hours of a BBC documentary on how Freud's ideas are used to maintain control democracy you should do it. Why? Because it will probably do more to stimulate your head than your job or your latest social appointment. 

The Century of the Self is certainly one of the best documentaries I've ever seen. It covers a wide spectrum of ideas, all centered around the effect of Freud's ideas on modern society, the consequence of his nephew Edward Bernays, and how our concept of the self has changed as well as consumerism and politics. Pretty heavy stuff, but it's conveniently in documentary rather than book form so it makes for an accessible venture. 

While it's 4 hours long, it's conveniently split into 4 parts so you don't have to devote an entire evening to it. It's certainly a documentary that makes you feel smarter when you finish it, and while it deals with fairly obscure subject matter it doesn't have that paranoid college student who worships Alex Jones feel that documentaries like Esoteric Agenda or Zeitgeist have. It's made by the BBC for crying out loud! It's gotta be legit! 


There! I gave you links, as well as a reason to watch it. What more do you need? 

Sunday, April 5, 2009

pretentious ramblings

Mankind has inner needs, and these inner needs seem to drive history. 

We have have an inner need to create order, to build structure and create societies. Man wants to be controlled. If this wasn't true then there would be no such thing as society. We created and accepted society and live according to it. 

Yet at the same time we have an inner need to revolt. Revolutions and rebellions occur, driven by our idealistic yearnings for a better system or simply an inner need create chaos. 

Both of these drives exist simultaneously it seems. 

We have an inner need for meaning too - we create religions, cults, spiritual movements, and philosophies. Yet we follow these movements dogmatically, closing off ideas from other movements. Yet if we were truly searching for meaning, why would do this? Contradiction after contradiction seems to exist in the human spirit. 

Here's an alternate theory - we have no inner need to be controlled. Instead we have an inner need to control others. We do not willing create society, society creates us and we simply accept it because of all that it does for us, regardless of many of the wrongs that may or may not be apparent. Those who revolt do so because they want control, whether they realize it or not. They believe their ideas are better than the standing order and that society would work better with them, whether their ideas are fascism, communism, or anarchism. 

Yet there is certainly an inner need for order in us. We organize our lives, we devote our lives to order and sensibility. We want to have beliefs that make sense to us and give us peace rather than add to the confusion and senselessness of our lives. 

Then why are there so many atheist, you may ask?

Possibly because the belief in atheism, regardless of it's emptiness and the nihilism it can lead to, creates comfort in us by making us feel better than others. We I tell a Christian that they are leading a life based on outdated beliefs, I feel a sense of superiority. I am aware of the truth, I am more in tune with reality, I have a more logical mind and a more sound grasping of reality. 

It sure beats having an invisible idol to pray to! 

The question is this: if everything than we have created exist because of our pathetic inner drives to be controlled, to control, or to feel superior, then how do we free ourselves from these traps and pursue a truer and less pathetic existence? 

Can we rise above human nature, or this simply making us less human? What if true human nature exist in state where these drives do not exist, and these drives were simply programmed into us by society and actually don't exist in our purest state of natural existence?








Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Superjail = the best

lookin' to fry yah brain kid? take a look at this cosmic mayhem, unleashed to us via stoner television network Adult Swim:


what my computer speakers are currently spewing:

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